Post with Poetry: Little Sweet Shoppe of Lies

Welcome to the sweet shoppe

Take your pick of treats

Sugar-coated goodness

Is what we sell to you

Here’s some divinity

Small and white and sweet

It melts right on your tongue

Just like our words will do

Look now at the cheesecake

You’ll get just one piece

But just not the whole thing

You’ll get sick, you will too!

Have yourself some chocolate

Dark and rich, a treat

Eat as much as you want

You won’t look like a fool.

We’ll give you what you want

We just can’t be beat

We’ll sugar coat it all

And you can keep your cool

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I got the idea for this poem the other night thinking about how dishonest people can be. One thing I can't stand is when people try to sugar coat things for me or blatantly lie to my face. I'm afraid that this may have happened to me recently. 

The truth is, I would much rather take a hard hit to the gut than for someone to not tell me the full truth and nothing but the truth. When you don't tell the truth, you leave people with questions, and confusion. You shouldn't leave people wondering about things that are important. It causes much more prolonged pain.

Sure, you should try to be as nice about it as possible, but be HONEST. It doesn't matter if it's a half-truth or a white lie; a lie is a lie, and it's still wrong. 

Little Sweet Shoppe of Lies

Welcome to the sweet shoppe

Take your pick of treats 

Sugar-coated goodness 

Is what we sell to you 

Here’s some divinity

Small and white and sweet

It melts right on your tongue

Just like our words will do

Look now at the cheesecake

You’ll get just one piece

But just not the whole thing

You’ll get sick, you will too!

Have yourself some chocolate

Dark and rich, a treat

Eat as much as you want

You won’t look like a fool.

We’ll give you what you want

We just can’t be beat

We’ll sugar coat it all

And you can keep your cool

I'm Me, and that's All I Can Be.

School and socialization has always been a tough thing for me, as well as other things. Kids would make fun of me a lot when I was little, or just ignore me. I am extremely clumsy, and am always stumbling over things. I’m not good at judging distances and measuring things visually. My language and writing skills are high up above my head, yet my math skills pool into a horrible mess at my feet.

I am highly sensitive. I do not like touching those cup holder things from Mc Donald’s. I don’t like eating big chunks of broccoli. If I run into something, it hurts more than it does for the average person.

My hands aren’t that great. When I was young, it took me longer than the other kids to learn cursive and to tie my shoes.

It’s other things, such as being one of the last people out of the classroom trying to get my stuff together. It’s also having trouble picking up on sarcasm sometimes (I have, however, gotten better with this-people around me use it a lot).

The big things and the little things all added up to my life, and something called Non-Verbal Learning Disorder (NLD, or NLVD). Up until last year, I hadn’t even heard of it. It has some similarities to Asperger’s Syndrome, with some differences.

I think one of the most difficult things has to be my social issues. I have a difficult time with eye contact, and I have a hard time understanding body language and tone of voice.

For many years, I had done so many stupid things socially, that I kind of just closed in on myself. I didn’t reach out much because I couldn’t trust myself in situations where I had to interact with people. I would play it as safe as possible. And, at times where I was interacting with others, while they may not have noticed, I was extremely anxious the entire time.

At this point after being diagnosed, I am seeing a counselor who helps me with almost every aspect of my life-such as socialization, organization, staying focused, being confident in myself, and even becoming healthier. She has been such a help to me so far. One of the biggest things I’ve learned from her is that the only way I can get better at things is to just do them.

I have to constantly remind myself that things aren’t as bad as they seem. Then, I have to hold my breath and just jump in-no matter how terrified I am. Sure, you’re going to make mistakes and do stupid things, but you can’t stop living!

For the longest time, I did do that, unfortunately. I became a whisp of dandelion that was just floating along for no good reason. Yet, maybe the floating along was just what I needed for a while. The floating eventually led me to a place where I could plant my roots and grow. The only way to grow is to take risks and learn.

I’m going to make a lot of mistakes. Some people are going to misjudge me. That is just the way it is.

Yet, it’s such a comfort to me to know that God has been there with me every step of the way. I don’t know where I’d be without Him. He has blessed me with an amazing family and friends. He’s given me hope and strength where others can’t. He’s also given me the ability to reach out to others to help them.

While life isn’t easy for me, (or anyone for that matter) it’s important to realize the good that you can do for others from your experiences. It’s my prayer that maybe, just maybe, my words and experience can be an inspiration or help for someone else. That’s what God put us here for-to help others and spread His word.

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In this post, I decided to share some poetry that I have written. I wrote this for a creative writing class I took earlier this year and added it as part of my portfolio. It is a type of poem called a "villanelle". Let me tell you-it was not an easy type to write. If you look up to see how they're written, you'll see what I mean. However, I love how this one turned out, and I think it's one of the better poems that I have written. And yes, there is a meaning to it. It should be interesting to see if anyone can pinpoint what it's talking about!

~Repression~

The needed stay in, the useless come out.

The needed are afraid, pushed back by pin

Never to come forth, and never to shout.

In their hearts is a constant doubt

Not wanting to shift another, they sin

The needed stay in, the useless come out.

They always go the same route,

Knowing of nothing else, they keep themselves in

Never to come forth, and never to shout.

Every day within is a constant bout

With themselves they fight again and again

The needed stay in, the useless come out.

So often, they face a constant rout

They can never seem to win.

Never to come forth, and never to shout.

Filled to the brim with fear, they walk about

Who see those who know not of the One who is risen

The needed stay in, the useless come out.

Never to come forth, and never to shout.

Fifty Shades of....Ignorance.

So, apparently, the number one best-selling books right now are the Fifty Shades of Grey trilogy. I haven’t read them, nor am I going to. I’ve heard enough through the media and word of mouth to know what they’re about.

And quite frankly, I’m disturbed.

Basically what it boils down to is a story dealing with a sadomasochistic CEO who hires a naïve girl. And surprise, surprise, they have a lot of sex throughout the books.

At almost every turn, women are swooning over this Christian Grey (the name infuriates me too) left and right. You know what it makes me want to do? Ram my head into a wall; repeatedly. One. Million. Times.

For a society as feminist as this country is, I’m shocked that it’s so popular. Yet, on the other hand, I’m not shocked. This society also often makes absolutely no sense.

It really disturbs me to see women getting so much pleasure out of the blatant disrespect the books give us. WAKE UP! Quit fantasizing about a guy who would make you do demeaning things!

Not to mention, the writing is supposedly terrible. It makes me sad that those books got published when something of greater substance and quality could have been published. Oh well. I guess we see that people sadly prize the controversial and twisted nowadays. Quality doesn’t seem to matter much anymore.

Ignorance is apparently bliss for the fans. As long as they get their instant gratification, nothing else really matters.

So, this one time, at Bible Camp....

Anyone who knows me knows how much I love going to bible camp every year. However, I have to say that the week I just completed takes the cake for the most interesting by far that I've ever attended.

Every year I look forward to the singing, the studies, and the fellowship (and the yummy food!). Yet, I wasn't expecting one thing to happen-my clumsiness seemed to increase ten-fold this week.

The first few days were filled with torrential down pours. I normally like rain, but there was so much that I got pretty sick of it. What really made me hate it even more was the dirt road running through camp. That meant mud, and LOTS of it. It was the second day of camp, and, we were getting ready for dinner. Well, as soon as I stepped out of the craft hut and on to that muddy road I remember thinking, "I am going to fall. There's no way around it. I'm going to fall."


I began to walk, and for whatever reason, I turned my head to look at something, and I'm quite sure it was something shiny...I can't remember for certain, though. Then, my sandals decided that they were going to slide out from under me, and BAM-I came tumbling down. I got covered in mud and grass.

Seriously, my clumsiness plus my ADD is going to be the death of me at some point.

Then, I spent the rest of the week bumping my head. Almost every time I sat up on my bed, or moved, I hit it against the top bunk-and it's a wonder how I managed to not annoy the living daylights out of  the new girl, Alyx, in the bunk above me.

 Then, at the awards ceremony last night, I got the award for the "Double Digit Head bumper". Total times I bumped my head was at least 10-12. That's probably a downside of being taller than the average girl-everything is too short and your noggin suffers greatly. Yet somehow my friend Tiki, who's about the same height managed not to bump her head as much.


I think it's safe to say that I probably lost some IQ points this week.


I had become so scatterbrained. Seriously, my book for camp seemed like it kept growing legs and walking away. I would put it somewhere and think I knew where it was, but when I came back it wasn't there. I think I  had a few different people come back and give me my book. My bible even decided to disappear for a short time until lo and behold, my sister somehow had it in her purse.


So, that sort of describes my week at bible camp. And needless to say because of these things and other things that are probably best left unsaid, it will be a week I'll remember for a LONG time. :)

Questions and Answers #1

For this blog, I'm just going answer some questions asked to me by people on Facebook. I'll be answering five of them today. If you're ever interested in asking me a random question, please, don't hesitate to ask! There'll be more like these in the future. So, here goes!

1. What is your biggest fear?
Well, that's a little hard to say. I'm kind of afraid of centipedes and wasps. Reason being because I've had bad experiences with them. I've been bit twice in my sleep by a centipede (yes, they do bite and it hurts). Also, I've been stung by a yellow jacket, and I almost went into anaphalaxis. It was pretty bad.

I guess I'm also intimidated by a lot of things. I'm not as bad as I used to be, but sometimes I feel really awkward and strange in social situations. It kind of goes back to a learning disability that I have that kind of causes me some issues with those sort of things. But, I'm definitely getting better and people can't always tell. So, I guess that's a good thing!

2. What is your dream job?
I've changed my mind so many times about this sort of thing. When I was little, I wanted to be a ballerina. Then I wanted to be an etymologist. Then I wanted to be a meteorologist. Then I wanted to be veterinarian. Then a ballet teacher. Then a counselor. Then a singer.

At this point now, I have absolutely idea. However, I'd have to say that as far as right now, I would absolutely love to work in a bridal store. That to me would be wonderful. Yet, I'm happy with the job I have now. As far as a lifetime career goes though, I'd be perfectly happy being a published writer and a mom. That sounds wonderful to me.

3. Where do you see yourself living when you are older?
I honestly don't know. Somewhere in the south, I hope. It'll probably be here in Georgia, in Alabama, or even Tennessee. So, who knows. We'll just see where life takes me.

4. How many kids do you want?
More than one. I've thought about this so many times. But I just keep coming back to having more than just one. I'd honestly be okay with having a sort of large family.

5. What is your favorite childhood memory?
I'm not really sure. There's just so many to pick from.

6. What was your favorite toy?
I always loved Barbies. I played with them for years and years. I still like them, but I do more collecting than anything.

7. What are your favorite movies?
My favorite movies are mainly Disney films, Studio Ghibli flims, and few others. I love the Princess Bride movie. It is one of the funniest things I've ever seen. I also love Charlie Chaplain films. They're so interesting-especially because you can see where film actually started. I also love the Harry Potter films, Twilight, and Tim Burton movies. As you can see, I like a lot of movies.

8.What are your favorite books?
My favorites are as follows: Harry Potter, Twilight, Uglies, To Kill a Mockingbird, The Secret Garden, Matched, Fruits Basket, Hunger Games, Monster High, and Nevermore.

9. Do you have a nickname? If so, what is it?
When I was in high school, one of my good friends gave me the nickname Takara-Chan. Ever since then, I've used it in various ways for different things. It means treasure in Japanese. My other nickname is simply 'Chels'.

10. What kind of makeup do you use?
I mainly use CoverGirl makeup. I really like their products, and their mascara is amazing. I used to use Maybelline, but once I tried the LashBlast length mascara, I didn't want to use anything else.

Welcome to My New Blog!

Welcome to my brand new blog! I will still be continuing my religious blog, but I just wanted one to discuss my daily life and experiences. I hope that through this new blog that I will be able to:

1. Get a better idea of where my life is supposed to go, but I honestly have no idea. All I know is that I want to have a family and write.

2. Improve my writing skills. I want to be a published author one day.

3. Vent, share opinions, and help others.

My blog will cover a wide variety of topics. It will talk about interesting things I find out about, books I've read, movies I've seen, my opinions on things, life's quirks, trials, and blessings. (And, I'm sure much more too!)

Also, for a future blog, I'd like my readers to ask me questions which I will answer in a future blog article! So, here we go! Thanks for reading! More to come!

Much love and blessings,

Chelsea :)