This past summer has been pretty stressful and crazy. Stressful because I was feeling anxiety about this upcoming semester. When you've had as much difficulty as I have had in school, it can be easy for your mind to start being uncertain.
Last semester didn't exactly turn out the way that I had planned. Granted, I have some good memories from last semester. Yet, there are some things that I did that I will never do again at school. Not bad things, but not realistic for me and what I am trying to achieve.
When I graduated high school, I knew I wanted to go to college, but I had no idea what in the world I was going to do. When I started off at a local tech school, and then later on at an online college, things did not go well. I had so much trouble with school and my classes, that I ended up convincing myself that I wasn't capable. I told myself that I would never go back, and that it wasn't worth it.
Sometime after I left beauty school, confused about my life. I felt disoriented and not sure of where to go next. Thankfully, God showed me the way through a job I had. Not only that, but through my sister who convinced me to give college another go.
During my first semester at Freed-Hardeman, I did better than I ever had before. That showed me, that yes, I am capable of doing this. And then, this past semester while I didn't do as well as I would have liked, I know what went wrong and I'm determined to fix it. I know that I can do this, because I have done it before.
I say all this to bring this up: regrets, mistakes, they are all inevitable. We are human and prone to these things. I have made some really dumb decisions in my life, but there is nothing I can do about them now. Where they were just silly human mistakes, I learned from them. Where they were sinful in nature, I asked God for forgiveness, and learned from them. 1 John 1:9 says, "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."
Life is way too short to have regrets looming over our heads; especially in regards to sin. If you've repented and asked God for forgiveness, we should find joy in that fact! Our God has redeemed us! (Eph. 2:8-9, Phil. 4:4.)
The longer we allow regret to consume us, we won't be very useful to God in His kingdom. We will eventually bear no fruit, growth stunted by a 'why bother?' attitude (John 15.) In the words of Elsa of Arendelle, it's time for us (and myself included) to...